Hello, It’s Me

Yes, I am back! So I just realized, I have not posted a thing on my blog for the whole year of 2015! What a shame! Did I work too hard that I never got a chance? Or maybe I had fun, super fun, that I did not bother to write? Whatever the reason was, I still don’t like it.

For me, writing keeps me sane. And it is one of the best way to look back on the things I have been through – good or bad. So just when 2016 comes, I’m taking a few steps back, thinking of all that has happened in my life, what went wrong and what went right.

As I stumbled upon the photos I took last year, I realized God blessed me a lot that all the blood and tears are worth it! Lots of my dreams came true and some of my goals were achieved. There were too many things to be grateful for – everything was wonderful and amazing! I have been to different places and experienced new stuffs. I’ve met awesome people to have fun with and to learn from. And to top them all, I met Avi, the reason behind my smile, my daily dose of inspiration and happiness! (I will share about him next time)

And if you’d ask me if there’s a thing I regret this 2015? I don’t have any. Everything happens for a reason. But it was not perfect either. It was never easy. But looking back on the bad stuffs isn’t nice to start the year, right? Let us be positive and look forward to all the blessings that God has in store for us.

So, despite of what I’m going through right now, I guess I am ready for yah 2016!

Happy New Year!

 

With Love,

Atria

Whatever Wednesday: Let’s catch up!

Hello there!

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It’s 13:12 EST now and I am working alone at the Front Desk, in my Manager’s words “You’re in charge!” And I like it, it just means that she trusts me and she believes that I can do it by myself! Yay!

You might be wondering how I was able to write this if I’m working. Just so you know, it’s so nice and quiet in our hotel right now. I believe I am done with all my paper works in here, the guests who were leaving have already checked out and I am just waiting for our guests to check in. See? I really have nothing to do — so I’m blogging my day shift away!

It’s been awhile since my last post. I know, right? I’ve been very busy since I started working in IHG. It was not the I-don’t-have-time type of busy though. There was just no perfect time for me to write. I think I was mentally drained. LOL! I have promised to write my IHG work experience but sorry because… still not yet composed.

If you’re one of my friends and one of my followers in Instagram, you’ve heard the news! I made it to the US again! Yeah! *teary-eyes*

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I am so grateful that my dream come true once again! One of my biggest dreams is to be one of a successful hoteliers in my age and working as a Front Desk Agent in a hotel abroad is my stepping stone. So imagine how happy and blessed I am that I’m working my dream job! I, having a soft and shy type of personality, I didn’t expect that I could fit in this job! It takes confidence to face different people from different countries around the globe. Like what they say, fake it till you make it. From time to time I have overcome my shyness and now I am all smiles greeting people! 🙂 Ugh! I love it!

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I realized that as long as you know what you want, just dare to dream and dare to achieve it then nothing is impossible! You are never too small to dream big! Okay?

I’ll be writing my journey to US one of these days and hopefully I could show you some pictures of the magnificent hotel where I am working at as well as the beautiful people I’m working with. And I would love to tour you around, too! I will take you to our magic kingdom by the white mountains, I promise!

I really wanted to tell you more about my experiences here in the US and what not but I can see a guest coming to check in! So, till my next post!

With love,

Atria

Midnight Random Thoughts: On Work and Rest Days

Time check: it’s 00:30 MNL! Yey! I’m an hour early from my regular sleeping time. I’m usually still on my way home at this moment! If you didn’t know, my work place is 5 cities away from home — it takes me 3 hours to get home after my 9-hour stressful shift! Nope, I’m not exaggerating. And it’s probably one of the reasons that make my work days harder. Patience, courage and strength are the tools! Atleast, for me. 🙂

Few months back, I used to envy my friends who are so busy with their work while they like it that I have all the rest of my time! I always tell them, “Atleast, you have money! I have none.” Haha! And now, I feel you, friends. Huhuhu. I badly wanted rest days,10 hours of sleep, hours just watching my fave TV shows and reading my fave blog sites while waiting for mama’s next food to serve! Sounds lazy, right? That’s why I’m now working.

So imagine how grateful I am right now for having my 2 rest days. Sarap! I had more than enough of sleep, had time to go to church, fb catch up with my friends (because it’s the best that we can do for being too far away from each other and for having complicated schedules. Naks, working girls!), do household chores that I barely do since I started working and a little me-time! Thank you, Lord! 🙂

Can I ask for one more day off? Haha! I feel scared again for tomorrow’s shift, eh. Whew! How long would it be till I get totally comfortable and happy with my job? I want that feeling of excitement on going to work knowing that I can be the best me! I’ll talk more about it next time. I’m already sleepy. Hihi.

About my job? I’m trying harder. Promise.

Sweet dreams!

With Love,
Atria

UNSPOKEN

“Thank you for calling! This is Atria. How may I help you?”

Have you heard I’ve already got a job? Yes! After 7 months of staying at home, job hunting that I didn’t take seriously and waiting in vain for my job opportunities in the US— I’ve finally decided to work here in Manila! *slow clap*

But after I received the contract— I have these mixed emotions. I am happy that I am no longer a coward because I faced my fears and applied for a job (Again! After the number of trying times that I can’t count anymore haha), no longer a loser because I was hired and I didn’t quit. Also, I am excited about learning new skills! Oh yeah, communication, I need you! But quite sad because some people (might) thought that I got the job because of my connections (?) and not because I deserve it? It was frustrating, really. That I wanted to leave the job right away! *sighs* But in a positive note, I use it as my motivation to work well and be good at it. I have to prove them wrong! Woah! Spirit! Haha!

I knew it! It wouldn’t be easy because I know what my capabilities are — I AM NOT FIT IN THIS JOB! I am not even close to their qualifications *Insert crying emoticon here* Well, that’s what I thought. But my sister who cares about me a lot and who believed in me said before, ” Kaya mo yan! I know you always excel in everything you do.” Pressure! Thanks, ate Kenn! Ayiieee!

I am talking about — Customer Service Rep. The job that involves a lot of talking, patience and strength. For me, it is one of the most difficult job! Imagine talking to an irate guests and working on a graveyard shift— hands down to all the CSR’s right there! And the job I never thought of doing. First, because I’m not a fluent english speaker — not even good in speaking in front of many people kahit tagalog pa yan! Second, I am scared because of my perception that it’s DIFFICULT!

Two weeks have already passed, and it seemed that I still haven’t totally adjusted yet — on the culture, environment and the people. I enjoy the training, though! I am learning! Woah! I’m so happy about it! And our trainers— oh my! They are amazingly awesome and the best! (I will write a different post about them. At the right time, kapag hindi na ko nahihiya at pag hindi ko na sila teachers?Teehee.) Even the company itself, I am so proud that I am now a part of it.

But as they always say, “You can’t have it all.” This work experience is really testing me physically, mentally and emotionally! And I’m feeling unstable somehow. Oh, poor me! I guess being emotionally unprepared affects me. Every time I step in our training room I feel nervous — I’m scared that I’ll not be able to do things right and that out of a big group of people I’d feel alone. When I say mentally and physically… I know you know what I mean.

I felt weak when negative perceptions of people around me cause me to be totally drained out. Reality? I cried over it in a day that I made my family worried because they never saw me break down and cry, unless we fight. They never saw me as vulnerable as I was that time. To be judged (sorry for the word) without knowing who you really are and without making an effort to do so did hurt me. I understand them the way they talk and the way they act — they confidence is really admirable! And for them to understand me? I felt sorry for myself. *Insert rolling-on-the-floor-crying-emoticon here* Some made me feel like I don’t belong which brought me to a point to question my personality. It’s not the acceptance that I wanted but please…RESPECT.

Right now, I think I’m getting over it! Yehey! It’s a good sign, right? I am learning to understand them more. Like they always say, “Everything you see is just the tip of an iceberg.” So,BE KIND. ALWAYS.

I realized that what other people say about me should not matter because I know who I really am and I have my family and friends who love me for who I am. People who has something to say behind your back, they are behind you for a reason. Remember that, Atria!

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Oh! Do you also believe that people throw rocks on things that shine? Anyways…

I’m starting to be CONFIDENT and I’m staying STRONG – which are the keys to survive in this field! It is tough. But I’ll keep on fighting. I will make my sister proud! Naaaks!

I apologize for my random thoughts and my ka-dramahan. And, thank you! 🙂

With love,

Atria

A Diamond in the Rough